insult to injury

This may seem really ungrateful because I know my dad is doing our family a huge favor being here for the week to help around here.  BUT I SPECIFICALLY ASKED HIM NOT to buy Mason a birthday cake because I wanted to make it. Yes I know im on bedrest but to put water, oil and cake mix together and throw it in the oven would require little effort on my part and seeing as I cant go shopping for a wonderful gift, this would have been from my heart. I was all set to ask him what color frosting he wanted and I could have made it anyway he wanted because I have the food coloring. So tonight I took out the round cake pans and crisco/floured them all set to preheat the oven and my dad comes in from smoking his shit-sticks and asked why the pans are set out and Bill tells him that we are getting them ready to get Mase's cake in the oven, Dad looks at me and says 'you wont need to bother." I said, "the ONE thing I specifically asked you to NOT do and you went ahead and did it anyway!!!!" I threw up my hands and retreated to my room like a child to blog about it and listen to music on my Blackberry. No matter how I tell this story I feel like Im 9 years old again only I'm the one who grounded me. MY baby boy is turning 5 tomorrow and I've done NOTHING for him. I can't even be a proper parent from the couch/bed, AND THAT'S THE LEAST I COULD DO!!!   Its so fucking frustrating that I cant do anything for my baby boy. Its like the homemade cake wouldnt have been good enough in Dads eyes so he had to get some ooey-gooey flashy store bought shit. Mase does have a present coming...he's going to go to Monster Jam in Hartford on the 6th of Feb. BUT I CAN'T GO!!!! Its just awful that my only role in this birthday is to order the tix over the phone and Bill takes his boy to the event. One thing. That's all I wanted to do. Tne fucking thing I could do, and it was taken away from me. I'm so pissed off and there is no point in screaming and yelling about it because my water could break and then what would have I accomplished? Nada, situation made instantly worse by a conniption fit. I need this month to be over with, January is usually a great month with Mason's bday, my bday, and the promise of a bright new year with countless new possibilities on the road ahead.  Not this year. All of it sucks right now. Yes it's temporary and it's been said again and again but why not one more time: when you're living in the moment these weeks are eeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnndllllleeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssssssss...........................