The Black Death

First of all I just kicked both my kids outside and Mase was cool with it but Cami is literally throwing a temper tantrum on the front porch she wants back in but its so nice out and she needs to be out there away from the TV. I just went out there to calm her down. She is so emotional! The whining and tears start over the most trivial things! Im not used to this...Mason is a calm kid and yes he has his tantrums but is easily calmed by a hug and maybe a cookie. Cami is a meltdown waiting to happen. Is it a girl thing? Idk, but if it is Im gonna go out of my mind with Lauren coming up. The good thing is, when L is 3 Cami will be 6 and hopefully the melt downs that go with Cam will have stopped by then and I wont have to deal with two little girls and their tears.

About the Black Death...I started a cold last week and began taking Zicam, well after 3 days I was not getting any better and by day 7 I was actually getting worse! I was like "WTF???" and dragged my sick ass (and all three kids :/) to the doctors. Thank God they gave me antibiotics, within 24-36 hours I was feeling more like a human and less "undead." Its been a real slow upswing, my energy is very low...it takes me forever to get little things like laundry done. I think it took all day to change sheets on three beds yesterday. Im trying but man after the whole giving birth thing, L being in the NICU for 10 days and then this sickness, I cant seem to get a break. I've showered a total of maybe 6 times in the past 4 weeks which is gross but its hard to explain, I just get up in the morning and go about the day, next thing I know its noon and I have to take Mase to school, get home put Cami down for a nap and I need to lay down myself then I gotta go get Mase (I cannot wait for him to take the bus in the fall...) and by the time I get him home its nearly time to make dinner and i get to bed at night wondering where my day went because it seems like i did nothing and everything all at once. I dont get it. But today, I am promising myself that I need to get going and get some actual tasks done. When the kids are eating lunch I will take a shower, and actually dry my hair and Goddammit, I will put on some friggin makeup! I look like HELL! Tmrw, I have a hair cut/color and Im really getting it cut off, I need some sprucing up big time. I'll ask if he has time to throw a few hi-lites in the front too.
Tmrw is also a stressful day for me, Lauren needs to have a Cystic Fibrosis test done. Her screenings were all low numbers but they dont tell us for sure if she actually has the disease. Odds are no but its still nerve wracking. Bill and I have a 25% chance of conceiving a CF baby and by having Lauren we are really pusing the odds. Cameron had this same test done as a baby and she's negative, Mase was tested in utero and he's not only negative but he's not even a carrier. Idk if Cami is a carrier, I should look into that for her sake. So Im dropping Cami off with Tia in the morning and taking Mase with me and Lauren to L's test. Mase needs some time alone with me and maybe a Dr appt isnt the best use of quality time but it will have to do for now. Besides I really dont think he cares much. He likes when Cami is out of the picture for a little while, he really loves his baby sister so he doesnt care that she's around. Im sure that will change as the years go by. Maybe not, they are 5 years apart so she wont even be in the same circles as Mase. Anyway, i should get to what I need to get to.