low expectations

My neck is still killing me but that will go away in the next week or so. I go to the chiro 3x week and Bill tells me that Tricare will cover chiro now! I just need to see my PCM and get a referral. I have to make it a point to call Tricare today. But then again I make lots of points and never follow through on any of them anymore. I hardly get anything done around here and I'm trying to make peace with that. I've learned that if I dont separate the laundry, I can keep up with it easier. This way, I do one load a day regardless of lights or darks and the laundry baskets stay empty for the most part. I do separate a bleach load, I have to do my towels in hot with bleach along with the other whites but other than that, I dont bother with separating. I'll call it "integrated laundering process."
This morning is really peaceful thank GOD. I woke up to some toys in the living room but the kids were playing quietly and watching cartoons. They ate breakfast and are back to playing and cartoons. Lauren nursed and is now out in her swing. So Im left to my coffee and some time to do this. It really helps me sort out my thoughts. I used to write in a journal but now I have the blog and my handwriting sucks bigtime anyway. I'm hoping to get some things done around here today like vacuumm, swiffer, laundry and getting to the babys room but I might get to one or two of these things. I really need to sort through the baby clothes. I've got such huge piles on the floor and overflowing the dresser. She's not sleeping in her room yet so I've been ignoring any sort of organization process in there. The only thing I do with her there is change her diaper. But I imagine she'll be sleeping in there by the end of the summer so I should get some system going for her (and me) Her closet is filled with coats from winter and a bunch of things that arent hers. That needs to get cleaned out! She's wearing 3 month size right now but will be getting in to 3-6 anytime now. Hard to believe she's gone from premie size to 3m in exactly 3 months! It looks like we'll be baptizing her at the end of July beginning of Aug. I love the Baptism gowns. They are expensive but so beautiful, I dont think she can fit into Camerons by then but I want to get her her own. There are very few things I will end of keeping when it comes to baby clothes but the Baptism outfits are def keepers.

Bill has not been home at all, this boat is ready to be commished and he is gone from 4am to 8pm most days. It sucks because I hate knowing he's "home" but not here. Deployments are easier than this bull shit, but it looks like he'll be heading to shore duty within the next year (finally!) and I have high hopes for a "normal" family life like we had when he first got to this precomm. The first 8 months were a piece of cake and he(we) deserved the break from that nightmare called Pittsburgh. We went through hell with that schedule and there were lots of dark days but the better part of 2009 was wonderful! Bill has put on 30 pounds and is not taking care of himself. He needs to get to shore duty and make healthy choices, the beer cans just keep piling up! I'm not in any great shape either but even though I'm not exercising, I'm a hell of a lot thinner than I was last month. I'm a size 8 and as soon as my neck and back recover from all this pain I will be working out in the basement. I'm going to do either Jillian Michales or P90X. Jillian is only 30 minutes and that is a big plus, so I'll prollly start with that and see how it goes. Im sure it will make a difference, as long as I watch what I eat because my eating habits are not so good. I really need to focus on my legs again, I used to have awesome legs but not no more! Oh well, in  due time I spose! As long as Im back in shape by the end of the year...thats the goal.