Mojo passed away today

This morning around 930 Mojo passed away. The grief is totally overwhelming right now and the decision to let her move on was the hardest one I have ever had to make. She has made a steady decline in health over the past four months and lately she has lost about 10 pounds, her fluid in her belly came back twice as fast, and two nights ago she had a seizure. That seizure and a conversation with the vet helped me to realize that she was not going to get better. It would be a slow painful death if she were to stay here with us. So after an agonizing night of restless sleep, I asked to kids to give Mojo a hug and a kiss before school and say good bye. They didnt know what was going to happen this morning, I will tell them this afternoon and read a bood together. But I wanted them to at least say good-bye even if they thought it was just a good bye before school. Afterwards, I came home to the most quiet I've ever experienced. Twice already, I thought I heard Mojo rustle around on her bed and I swear I heard her "warning bark." My first instict was to gather up all her things and clean them. I washed her blankets, her doggy bowls, and packed up her leashes and tags, doggy sweater, and bed. I bagged up all her meds and vacuumed up most of the dog hair. I took the remaining dog food and sealed up the bag. I dont know what Im going to do with all these things yet. Right now its all in a corner in the living room. It was just too painful to look at. Anyone who knows me well and my Mojo knows how she drove me crazy. But I loved her. We all did.
 I'm ready to share the words I wrote for her a couple weeks ago. This morning I sat with her after the kids got on the bus and read:
"Mojo, even though you drove me crazy for 9 years, It's me who needs to apologize. I feel like I now know why you were constantly under my feet in the kitchen. The kids did steal some of your attention away. But it was them who gave you the table scraps I never let you have. They love you very much. Daddy and I love you very much. Whatever pain or discomfort you have will be gone soon. You will be free to run wherever you want without a leash. You can chase as many cars as you want, and bark as loud and as long as you want. Thank you for a crazy 9 years."
We will slowly move forward as we deal with our grief. But right now is so hard. I dont know how the kids are going to react and that pains me even more. Never did I ever think this would be so heart-wrenchingly difficult.