My arm hurts

Got my first progesterone shot yesterday. Of course I was full of questions for the nurse with odds of this actually helping me. She, of course, was a total "debby downer" and tells me that she's never seen this help anyone!!! WTF??? Why the hell would the doctors make me go through weekly injections of this shit if it wasnt proven to work??? Even the Perinatologist who did my level II u/s in Oct said this was the only course of treatment actually proven to help. It will give my body a better shot (no pun intended) to carry this baby to the third trimester. Anyway I didnt think it was any big deal where she gave me the shot but next week I'll be sure to get it in the right arm because my left arm is killing me! I do everything left handed. So the next month is just full of doc appoints. I go every tues for an injection and every two weeks for a cervical measurement which is just o so pleasant. Gotta love the internal u/s...then tmrw Im going for another Level II to check baby girls heartbeat. Last time I was there there was nothing wrong with the structure of the heart and this irregular beat has shown up just in the past month. It's my uneducated guess that it's a murmer just like Cameron had and hers healed on its own by her first birthday. But we'll do what we need to do to take care of the problem whatever it turns out to be.

On a different but more depressing note, one of the guys my husband works with died this week. I'm obviously not going to go into detail because that is private. But Bill is not only having to deal with all this pregnancy stress at home but now grieving the death of a fellow Chief at work. If I were him I would feel like never going to work and never going home. His schedule is crazy busy with the boat's christening this weekend and all the testing that's coming up to get the boat ready for sea trials. Right now he's got duty on Christmas day. It's just really a tough spot in this house for the time being with Bill being so overwhelmed  and my stress with this pregnancy. We're just trying our best not to take it out on the kids or let the kids feel what we're feeling.  I had a hair cut and color last night and I was so close to canceling the appt for fear that I was doing too much but turned out to be a great 2 hour distraction to all that's going on. My stylist is a total trip and hearing his story of his Thanksgiving was great along with conversation that didnt involve cervixes, vaginas, death, and ultrasounds. So Im really glad I kept the appt. I needed that.