Major hospital action

Hoooooly shit, has this been a crazy week! I ended up at Women and Infants hospital on Friday because I went into early labor. My contractions were 3-4 min apart and they gave me IV Magnesium Sulfate and a pill called Endocin which by 4 or 5am stopped my contractions. They admitted me to the hospital until Tuesday morning when the Drs were satisfied my contractions werent coming back and my cervix remained unchanged.  It was a wonderful hospital with the most amazing NICU equipped to handle seriously premature/sick babies.  My room was surprisingly comfortable as far as hospital rooms are concerned. The nurses were great and I couldnt even complain about the food either. I was supremely bored however and it sucked being there for my birthday. Bill showed up with Hostess cupcakes and candles and sang me Happy Birthday. Of course it made me cry!  So anyway I get home Tuesday morning and everything seems to be fine until yesterday night when I start feeling contractions again. So i call the Dr and she tells me to go to Backus (Thank GOD, cuz we did didnt want to drive 45 min to Providence) to get checked out. My cervix was unchanged since Tues but my contractions were 1-4 min apart and that needed to get stopped. So this time I was given a pill called Procardia and that did the job, they kept me overnight and by 1am all was peaceful. I was home by 10 am this morning and will continue to take the Procardia every 6 hours to make sure I dont start contracting again. As much as I want this drama to just stop, I know this baby needs another 5 weeks of cooking to do. I just feel so awful that I've put my family through so much strain...it almost feels selfish because I wanted another child so badly and now all this is going down. Bill is under so much stress and I can't help but to feel like it's my fault.  But anyway, so long as my water doesnt break we're in good shape over here. I got meds so it would seem to me that will help keep my pregnant ass out of any more hospital stays. There is no sleep to be had in those friggin hospitals! I need a good nights sleep tonight and then I should be back to a normal pattern. Its hard being cheerful when im so tired. We are scheduled for parent teacher conference tonight at mason's Pk. As of yesterday, Bill "forbid" me to go but I'm going anyway. Its not like I have to drive or do anything physical...I dont even have to stand up, we'll be sitting and having a conversation for 20 minutes that's it.  So its back on my spot here at the couch. *siiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh*