6 days till 1/2 marathon

After this past Sunday's run I feel good that I will survive 13.1 miles and cross the finish line without crying or any hissy fits. I set out the goal to do 10 miles and I actually did 11. I had to stop and walk around mile 6 or 7 and I walked for a mile. That was just the break I needed cuz i was able to jog the rest of the way home. My time is VERY slow. It took me 2:14 to do the 11. That is what some Kenyans do full Marathons! Obviously I am not a Kenyan and I am not a competitor in this race but I can say with confidence that I am a FINISHER!! For being a 34 year old who just decided to print out a training schedule one day and do a Half that feels really damn good to say. Never in my life did I ever think I would do such a distance and here it is 6 days away and I'm really excited to check this off on my life's to do list. I dont really have a life's to do list but a half marathon is always something I wanted to do but never thought I'd have the energy/time/willpower to accomplish. If it werent for my new friend Kim, none of this would be happening. ON A DIFFERENT note, I pulled out my birth control. It was making me crazy. And if anyone knows me well, they would know I do NOT need to be any crazier than I already am. I've had nasty mood swings, and they hardly swing to happy or even horny. That is not cool. I was swinging from super sad to super mad. I thought the Nuva Ring would be convienent since I only need to worry about it twice a month but its hormones did nutty things to this lady. Plus its gross. Putting it in during my first day of the period...EW! Then the spotting for two weeks straight, EW! I had to use a small tampon and TWICE I pulled out the ring with the tampon and had to fish it out of the toilet, EWWEWWW. So done with that shit. Condoms or Vasectemy. That's what we're down to. 4th child?? Uhhhh, noooo. If we ever decide to have a 4th it will be adopted. The thought of doing all that again seriously frightens me. Looking at where Lauren is now developmentally is so wonderful and a repeat of NICU, CF tests, up all nights, breast feeding, losing weight, and my hair falling out again sounds like torture. I'm so happy with the kids we have and the family/life we've made for ourselves.