....and another begins. I havent put my thoughts into words in 2 months. A lot of shit has happened around here in that time. Between Txgiving and Xmas the pressure was ON.The last time I blogged I was feeling the heat of the holidays coming up and it def came to a boil. I literally chucked an empty can of black olives at Bill! There were tears, food (a LOT of food), wine(a LOOOOOOOOT of wine), family, empty wallets and bank accounts, a few total freak-outs, but the good times were worth it. Sorta. Well no maybe not. I honestly think we could have had a good time without the pressure I put myself under. But then again who knows. Would my family and Bills family have the same good time if I ordered take out or a prepared turkey instead of cooked everything from scratch? Sometimes I wonder if the "love" thats put into all the preparations really makes the difference. Because "love" costs a shit-ton of money to prepare. All in all the holidays were awesome. I was drunk through most of it, I have no idea how I didnt burn Xmas dinner. New Years was boring but such is life nowadays. Then comes Masons birthday and my birthday.We just celebrated at the Trampoline Place yesterday. It was snowing like crazy out there but we went balls out and made our way there. No way was that boy getting jipped out of a party when I made a hella-cool baseball cake for him. Only three friends showed up but its Trampolines, you really need to try hard to have a bad time. 3 friends or zero friends we were getting our bounce on.
So the new chapter begins with a couple months of single mother time. I have no idea how long this underway will be. Bill's orders seem to change daily and his latest order mod really leaves me with a huge question mark. I cant believe I dont have an end date to this underway. Unreal. But, he is def going to be a COB and I am uber proud of that guy. Not psyched about a THIRD sea tour in a row, but "only" 4 more years till retirement. This new chapter in our lives is really going to be the most difficult I feel. I thought being a new mom and having to live in 2 separate states was hard but this is a whole other ball of wax. I'm going to be a COBs wife. I have no idea what that is going to entail but I keep my mind open and hope for the best. I did see the COB afloat parking spot at the Commy the other day and smiled....I get to park there. Nah nah na boo boo Im better than you-oo. LOL! Bill gets a parking spot! (along with like 12 other COBs and their spouses but its still pretty coool) Ugh I cant believe Im geeking over a parking spot. Im so gay. Im also so effing tired. My body is killing me from all the effing shoveling this weekend and all the shit I've had to clean up with all the snow, melting snow, and salt to melt that fucking snow. My floors are gross and of course I have no more swiffer wet wipes. Off to Wally World tmrw. I think I vac'd up a pound of rock salt from all of us going in and out today. Me and my red wine are going to watch Desperate housewives and eat popcorn. I will be on here way more often now that I have no one to talk to at night. I'll go crazy with all these thoughts swimming in my head!
Glad to have you back to the blogging world. Is Bill gone gone (where does he go?) or just working such long hours that it seems like he is gone? I have been there with John gone for long lengths but we were childless at the time - stay strong sister. And yes, a parking stop is worth geeking over.
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